I can say, life is a battle which sometimes shows us its own way and its own rules, but for us human beings it means to grow and become a better version of ourselves for a better future.... like Paulo Coelho said once; BE BRAVE. TAKE RISKS. NOTHING CAN SUBSTITUTE EXPERIENCE... plus all the time it is nice to take a chance and risk something for your hapiness and joy, because in that moment of madness and andrenaline, some senses can became sharp and make you do things better... A couple of yours ago, I was afraid to say what I actually thought and did things just because it had to be done. Most of us were doing them maybe unconscious because we are humans and we forget completely to feed our soul, heart and pay attention to our own emotional part... I get that now, after many years, it is really hard to do the first step. Your feeling take over your body and mind. In this aspect, some reaction can be really scary even for yourself, but I cried and got really tired mentaly and physically at some point that even moving seemed impossible to do... Still, I consider myself a broken piece of something unique, that can still go and smile, keep up wih everyday life. The only thing I can do is to pay more attention to my emotions, feelings and be honest to myself, even if I bleed inside of me and I am thirsty to feel love and hugs most of the time... and it is even harder when your shield is down and you actually show yourself to the world. Ita can be a shock or you start blocking your own mind. I REALLY THINK THAT THE MOST PRECIOUS TIME WE CAN GIVE IS TO YOURSELF AND TO TAKE CARE OF OURSELVES TO BE STRONG AND BECOME OUR BEST VERSION IN BABY STEPS.